CURRENT STATUS

If you have any questions for Andy about the prison system, what it is like, what goes on there, or anything, please leave the question in a blog comment and Andy would be happy to answer it. It keeps him occupied and allow us to learn about the system.

Also, for his friends, he would LOVE to get pictures of anything, so if you have his address, please send them to him, or if you would like to email them to the blog editor, you can do that and he will print out the pics and mail them to him.

He is now attending the class he must take before his release, and he will mention the journal entry memo they discussed that day in class.

Even if you don't know Andy, feel free to comment on his blog entries, which he gets and will respond to.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

PRISON SENTENCE BEGINS

It's a litte after 9 and I'm up to eat breakfast with my dad.  My cousin is supposed to meet us too.  I'm having a couple of breakfast tacos.  I'm really not even hungry, but I know I better enjoy my last bit of decent food.  I will be visiting with my mom for the last time at about 10 am.

I got about 3 hrs of sleep last night.  I'm pretty miserable right now.  I talked to just about everyone yesterday that I wanted to talk to in person, but there are a couple that I really missed hearing from. 

Well, the food just got here so I guess it's time to eat some  breakfast.

Update:  30 minutes till jail.  Seeing my parents for the last time was so hard. I will get through all of this a better person.  I will miss all of my great friends and family and love every one of you.  Thank you for all of your support.  I hope to write again soon.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

LAST NIGHT BEFORE INCARCERATION

I am going to be sentenced and locked up tomorrow.  I have still only been able to get about 2 hours of sleep for each of the last handful of nights.  I would not even thought it was possible for my body to get by with so little sleep, but I guess it somehow did.  I know that my mind is off.  I can tell I'm not thinking clearly and it's pretty scary.  The two most frightening things right now are 1. Not knowing how long I will be away and 2. Not knowing how long my current anxiety level will last.  It would feel so nice to simply have a good night's sleep and wake up in the morning to a good breakfast, but I'd be willing to  bet that's not going to happen.  I have talked to so many friends today and close family.  It has been nice to hear their reassurances.  Each time I have ended a phone call I have tried to commit to memory everything I discussed and everything that was said.  I realize that I have a lot of people that are totally in my corner and that are extremely concerned about my short term and long term welfare.  I do not want to disappoint them anymore.  I am also tired of disappointing myself and I don't want to do that anymore either.  I will try to write briefly tomorrow before I am taken into custody, but if I don't have a chance my next blog will be in the form of a letter that I postal mail from the inside to my friend on the outside.  I do ask for your patience if it takes a while.

LAST DAY OF FREEDOM

2 hours of sleep last night.  I can barely hold my eyes open to function and try to wrap everything up today.  Don't know how much I'll be able to blog today, but I did want to tell everyone thanks for the nice comments.  My father is here with me now at my house and we have just about loaded all my belongings up.  He will be taking my dogs while I'm gone.  We are about to go grab something to eat.

Monday, January 25, 2010

LAST DAYS BEFORE PRISON

It has been a very long last couple of days.  It seems like Wednesday (day I go to jail) is just hovering right over my head and there is nothing I can do to make it go away.  It was enjoyable yesterday to meet some good friends and enjoy the great football games.  I had been looking forward to that all week long.  It was a pretty disturbing feeling once the last game was over and it was time to go home.  I really didn't want to tell everyone goodbye.

My emotions are all over the charts.  One minute I am ready to start serving my sentence and get all of this mess behind me and then 5 minutes go by and I can't even figure out how I'm going to get by 'till tonight.  I suppose this is "normal" for my situation, but it is definitely

Friday, January 22, 2010

LAST WEEKEND BEFORE PRISON

My last weekend.  How should I spend it?  It really makes one think.  It really makes you look at life differently when things are about to be taken away from you.  What would you do if you had one last weekend before being locked up for who knows how long?